When your “Fifteen”

Unless you live under a rock, I’m sure you have heard Taylor Swift’s song “Fifteen”. I laugh at it now because I realize how incredibly accurate it was for when I was 15.  So I decided to have fun with this (and kind of make fun of myself) and tell you what 15 year old Kassidy was like via T-Swift. So here it goes….

“You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It’s the morning of your very first day
You say hi to your friends you ain’t seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody’s way”

Ahhhh….I remember the first day of freshmen year like it was yesterday. I remember getting out of my mom’s car and walking through those gates to my huge high school. Rows of tables lined the courtyard for “freshmeat” orientation. I had a million emotions running through my mind including being scared as hell. But when I saw my best friends that I’ve had since elementary school, I immediately began to relax.

It’s your freshman year and you’re gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
“You know, I haven’t seen you around before”

I was born and raised in the small town of Grants Pass, Oregon….I surely was stuck at this school for the next four years. My family never moves. But I was okay with it, I could never leave my friends or those cute senior boys that I’ve never seen before.

“Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna believe them
And when you’re fifteen feeling like there’s nothing to figure out but
count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you’re gonna be

Yes, I had my first boyfriend when I was 15 years old tell me he loved me and I believed him. I was pretty happy. I had no worries at that time other then volleyball try outs and what dress I was going to wear to homecoming. I had no idea what I wanted to do that Saturday, let alone what I wanted to do with my life. If only I could have that stress free life back again!

“You sit in class next to redheaded Abigail
And soon enough you’re best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they’re so cool
We’ll be outta here as soon as we can”

I made so many new friends my freshmen year. High school is an awesome time to meet new people and build up your friend circle. Because trust me, as you get older that circle of friends starts to shrink. But I know that it’s hard to think that far ahead. But please don’t try to get out of high school as fast as you can like I wanted to. Relax and enjoy these years with out lots of responsibilities!

“And then you’re on your very first date and he’s got a car
And you feeling like flying
And your mama’s waiting up and you’re thinking he’s the one
And you’re dancing ’round your room when the night ends
When the night ends”

My boyfriend was older than me and could drive. I thought it was the coolest thing in the world that he could pick me up and take me places. However, my parents weren’t as thrilled. They would constantly check in with me and wait up for me when I came home at 11, my curfew. Man did I hate having a curfew! Looking back at it now, I’m glad I did even though it SUCKED at the time.

“Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna believe them
And when you’re fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin around
But in your life you’ll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
I didn’t know it at fifteen”

I actually had my first real kiss when I was 14 and it was pretty cute. I had those silly butterflies and everything. Dating from that point on kinda consumed me and it was all that I thought about. Thank the good Lord that it didn’t ruin any of my relationships with my friends like I watched happen with so many others. I wish I realized back then that dating is fun, but I’ll do a lot more important things than dating that boy that is “sooo cute”.

“When all you wanted was to be wanted
I wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now. Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday. But I realized some bigger dreams of mine. Abigail gave everything she had to a boy who changed his mind. We both cried.”

I realize now that I liked the idea of someone always wanted me. It ruined me and my self esteem at the time when we broke up. But I wish it didn’t. I took it way too personal. It was just a young high school break up. Happens to everyone! Thankfully, all I ever did was kiss the guy. Sadly though, some of my best friends got their hearts broken by mean guys that took everything from them. It was so hard to watch.

“Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna believe them
And when you’re fifteen, don’t forget to love before you fall
I’ve found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you’re supposed to be
I didn’t know who I was supposed to be

Eventually, you learn from it and get over it. I don’t regret any of it and it taught me a lot! I’m actually thankful for it. I found who I was because of all the hard situations I wet through as a high school kid. Whether that was from boys, bad job experiences, being cut from a favorite sport or failing a class. Everything that happened to me has made me the person I am today. Don’t let those things discourage you, learn from them and better yourself.

“la la la la la
Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors”

Take a deep breath and enjoy those high school years! They will fly by and you will look back like me and wish you could relive those time. You only get four years to make blissful not awful!

Thanks Taylor for being on point. Maybe you can learn a thing or two from a song 😉